Kaia-Dere

HONEY IM HOME! Lol sorry couldn't resist. Anyway hey anyone who reads my babble! Been awhile yeah? Hope you're all doing well ^^ So, bunch has happened. Graduated from college with a BS (lol) Degree in Film, then my Ma graduated form Nursing school at the same time, literally back in forth across states to go to both then move my now in debt and broke butt home lol. Yuuuuuuuup.....living with the family for the for-seeable future. It's okay though, we're a tight knit group (with some interesting tempers sometimes...too many differing outlooks) so it's...doable. Ma and I are even thinking of building a new home with lake access together. She

I am completely relationship inept....I have no idea what to do or say to fix an issue, or how much is too much when trying to figure out if soothing is wrong...or how to cheer them up....i just don't know... And i may have lost Kara again because of it. Its not wrong to want to spend more time with the one your in love with...its not wrong to want to see them more, be with them more... but...maybe i went about it wrong....maybe i pushed too hard too soon... This has to be something I'm doing wrong...maybe I'm too much of a worrywart...im just so scared she is going to disappear again...i know she promised she won't...but...it doesn't tak

"thank you for keeping your word" i...am the worst fuck up ever.... why do i have to believe that keeping my issues quiet will help with the conversation....i just...i didnt want her to be burdened...but i got so...so ANGRY.... "at least its treated!".... but she didnt know....she had no way of knowing... M...god M...im so sorry......it wasnt you...never you...i was so angry and in pain....and frustrated....god M... im failing a class.....and if i cant..fix it..ill lose my honors for graduation...3 years of hard work to earn that cord at graduation......gone....i was on the verge of tears....and now i lost it at M... god i cried so har